tarynitup

i don’t ever suggest running from your problems. but i run like hell from mine. 0 out of 10 recommend. however, i know that i do it, so we can embrace it and call it what it is.

am i getting TFFFF out of here tomorrow? yep. will i be back in time for work on monday? yep.

i wish you knew the truth. i wish you had never gotten pulled into a mess i had been trying to get out of since october, both of our timings fuckin sucked honestly, we never stood a chance.

i think the biggest thing ive learned is that when you give so much of yourself trying to protect others, even those that you don’t need to worry about, you leave nothing for yourself. i used to think that if everyone around me was happy and “pleased”, i was safe and things were okay- no matter how much work i had to do to make it happen. constant conflict in my life since i was 5 will do that. but we do what we have to so we can survive through it, and i had a hard time letting so of a person that had always been there- even if they may not have had good intentions.

so yea, i’m runnin again, but at least its less than 48 hours…