tarynitup

A year ago, I went to a reggae festival in Long Beach. I’m not usually into that music, I don’t go out of what I have listened to, new music gives me anxiety because I don’t know the lyrics or the beat or anything about the artists, so I feel like I should do a bunch of research before I dive into new music.

In therapy, I learned it was overstimulation. My mood was off putting because I was overstimulated, I was unmedicated for my adhd, and people don’t understand how fucking hard it is to live with it AND anxiety- because anxiety feeds adhd and makes it almost impossible some days.

Now, thinking of it, I can remember so much about that festival, but I had SOO much to process haha it was crazy! I’m slightly like homeschool kid that went to public school, and now I’m learning about how my adhd/anxiety has affected my relationships, and I wish I had realized this sooo much sooner…