tarynitup

I rarely dream.

It’s something that I’ve had mixed feelings about for the last few years. I’m not sure if it’s smoking before bed or what… but I didn’t dream.

Until recently..

And what once was just solid black sleep has started turning into night terrors.

Not just bad dreams where you feel icky and wake up and think “whew, thank goodness that was a dream”

No. That would be too easy.

What they’ve turned into- full on night terrors. Feeling stuck in a high emotional situation, unable to wake myself up. When I do wake up, I’m covered in sweat and I wake up hysterically crying. Everything being so vivid, so possible.

They say time heals things,.. but why is it making it worse? It’s getting to the point of being scared to sleep.

I can’t take this much longer.