tarynitup

We were supposed to love each other.

We could have healed together instead of ripping each other apart. We both fucked it up and made the mess.

In my mind, it was always them. We talked about me going to their house on my lunch breaks.

I feel so used. They would sit there and look at me and tell me they knew I was trying, they knew I was sorry. I feel like they really now never took me seriously, even when I gave everything I had with getting no commitment in return.. when I needed reassurance the most, I set that need aside to not pressure them.

I’m curled up in my Harry Potter blanket, absolutely horrified about tomorrow.

What if I’m not good anymore? We were supposed to love each other. All of the weird signs we noticed.

For nothing. For them to think I deserved my heart to be played with. For them to take back everything apology that started to heal my heart and they ripped it back open… for what?

There are tears in my easy Mac 😭