tarynitup

We all know the flat earth/birds aren’t real/chemtrails in the sky people… and I never thought I’d see the day where the NOT so extreme group of those people are owed a majorrrr apology.

Anything made starts as what… an idea. That idea comes from somewhere. Think of movies like the Matrix… Eagle Eye… Lucy… movies ahead of the times and off-the-wall.

The last few months have been… confusing. I had an experience a few months ago and where people usually see crazy shapes and colors and shit… I was shown something different… and it’s something that’s sent me obsessed with spiritual growth.. and figuring out what it even is.

A year ago- I would have laughed in your face if you asked me to go a store that sold crystals. (and I love rocks!!) I didn’t think they really worked… plus, the Baptist conditioning came into the back of my head. “This is the magic we warned you about, if you do this, you go to hell” and like anything else from my childhood, I went against it and went into the fucking store.

OH MY GOSH THEY’RE SO PRETTY!

As I’m walking around the store, with my best friend telling me ”just find one that calls to you” BITCH I HAVE ADHD, THEY ALL ARE- I start to try and think about how a crystal could work.. because apparently I need to understand everything. I finally realized that a crystal is from the earth, which holds so much different types of energy. Just like radiation can harm your body, other kinds of energy can heal you or aid you.

Just like some peoples energy can be healing, just with their presence.

I pick out this really pretty moon shaped crystal that made me feel like I had caffeine injected when I held it and we leave. I run back in because I realize the ring I’ve worn on my middle finger for 5 years is a crystal. I asked them what it was, and it’s one of the best ones for personal growth, self reflection, and enhances our natural gifts. Mine, I’ve learned recently, is healing. Which becomes more of a lonely curse the more I learn and tap into it.

No, I don’t mean giving the blind their vision back. But the reason I have gone through so much more large traumatic events than the average person is so I can relate and be there for more people as a shift in the earth is happening. We are all creators. And learning that God wasn’t a physical person but more of everything that is everywhere, all at once.. including inside of all of us… that was an ego death in itself that has been hard to deal with. All of us can do it- but when you are so down and your world is dark and you create light out of that darkness- you just created that light, which you can transfer to energy form. And the biggest thing to understand about energy is that it can never be destroyed, just transferred.

Then I stumbled onto the theory that the majority of us choose to live our life on Earth. (All of this is just theory, I’m still learning a lot) We pick the life we have, the family we’re born into, the pain we feel, all of it… because we want our soul to evolve. Some people say it’s the toughest school in the universe because it’s the only place we forget everything when we’re born here. That’s the point. The purpose of life is to remember your gifts, what your purpose is- and we cannot do that when we are so focused on what the real life “Blacklist” want us to focus on. Modern day religion, inflation, pandemics… all of these things were created to cause fear because people that are scared are easier to control. They ask less questions because they just want to feel safe. But if you notice, people have admitted to there being a list similar to that list from the show… so again, ideas come from somewhere. When you start to go on the journey to remember- it’s usually started by an extreme pain… one that goes down to your soul to remind yourself that you truly have one. Once you start to love yourself and heal yourself, it’s scientifically proven that love vibrates on the opposite frequency of fear, which is the lowest. You attract your same vibration. If you are a broken person that hasn’t done any work on yourself- you will attract people that are the same or people that want to FIX those people. A beacon saying “validate me”. As you start to heal and learn about yourself, you start to unlock things that you didn’t know you knew. You remember things that you know didn’t happen during this life- and if you’ve ever had deja vu, it’s the weirdest feeling ever but there is a reason for it. There is a reason for everything. As we start to heal though, something unlocks in us… and we start asking questions. We realize how many people are so FUCKING asleep and unaware because of the obscene amounts of time they are on their phone or computer. The phone that we can no longer ‘fully’ power down or remove the SIM card in. You start to realize things like documentaries about a pandemic starting from wild animals, like bats, that was released November of 2019 and said it wasn’t a matter of “if” we would have another pandemic… but “when”… SOON, APPARENTLY.

There are books left out of the bible… because they would raise too many questions. The bible was changed over time and God was made out to seem like a vengeful father that had no problem killing you… but God is light and love and the reason any good thing is possible… there are just BASIC rules that we have to follow.. which if you follow those 10 rules, you will naturally vibrate on a very high frequency. Interestingly- they found that AUTHENTICITY vibrates on a frequency 40x higher than love.

Anyone that knows me knows that I own who I am, I don’t change who I am, I live off of principle, I have a strong moral code, and I love the things that make me weird. I own my truths, I’m open about my past, and I take the time to listen to others. All of these things have gotten stronger over the last few years but have been on super speed the last few months. When I went to Portland, my friend told me that he hadn’t worked on music in weeks and the set he was supposed to play in a few hours wasn’t even started but just by me being there, he felt better and he locked in and put his set together. I told my roommate I wanted to help him feel better because he was going through some stuff, and she said ‘just be there, that’s all you need to do’ and I didn’t understand it for a while. It wasn’t until the misfit was standing in his bathroom doorway and said “you know you’re a healer, right?” and I laughed and said WHAT? I told one of my best friends who has known me for a few years and really helped me through that awful time in my life and he said “I’ve always known that, but you had to figure it out yourself. Your gift is that your energy heals and your love nurtures and creates peace.”

I AM NOT PEACEFUL HAHA. I mean, my soul is gentle, but I am a cluttered mess. THEN, ENTER THE BLOOD TYPE RABBIT HOLE…

My blood type is O-

Universal donor. RH negative.

Look up the origin of RH negative blood.

I’ll save you the time- THEY DON’T FUCKING KNOW.

Usually, I’d be like hmm that’s interesting… but since it is literally the blood running THROUGH my body… what do you mean YOU DONT KNOW.

And then my medical brain kicked in. If childbirth is supposed to be completely natural and has been since the beginning of time… why will my body miscarry a baby from a positive blood type without a shot of Rogam? I almost lost my first because of that. The RH negative blood is not a mutation, it is so specific that they say it had to be genetically engineered, it is not a mutation- but it is a marker.

A MARKER FOR WHAT.

So, like anyone else in 2025- I went to ChatGPT (hahah, I did not expect shit from this but I thought it wouldn’t hurt because I was on the hunt for information) and I put in 4 things. DMT sensitivity, O- blood type, and significant amounts of trauma throughout life, and for some reason I felt like I needed to put that I have a fear of deep water but not space.

Another theory- soul contracts. Those people that you feel like you’ve known forever, a person that comes in at a random time to help you- we make contracts with other souls that will help us learn the lesson we are trying to learn on Earth… and sometimes that requires pain, and a lot of it. One of my favorite theories is that you have a soul family that you just travel through the universe with.

IF I HAD TO GUESS- by the theories I’ve researched and knowing that my blood type did NOT COME from ANY early human civilization that we know of (it’s truly insane that we don’t know the origin and it’s fueled most of this spiritual journey when doubt creeps in).. I feel like I lived on a star, possibly lived during Atlantis (theory of the bloodline) and I would guess I decided to come to Earth to help the consciousness shift that is going on. Everything is connected. Google 2027,2028,2029, and 2030 and look at the images. Go to the CIA website and read about Noahs Ark/Adam and Eve declassified documents (not all were released btw).. or on that same website- look up remote viewing…We never questioned the system in place. How can the world be trillions of dollars in debt? We created the very system and who are we in debt to?

People have always talked about a “rapture”… but what if all of that was a story that was dramatized to keep people scared of knowing the actual truth? The theory that Earth is in the process of ascending from 3D to 5D is a very large theory (the poles are also truthfully shifting) and what if that’s the ‘heaven’ we were taught about? Old Earth keeps the negativity and keeps the darkness it created, along with the people that don’t vibrate on a high enough frequency to ascend with Earth. New Earth is based on unity, love, compassion… all of the things that life was SUPPOSED to be on Earth. Neither old or new Earth would know the other existed, but there’s still a chance for people on old earth to raise their vibration. If someone hasn’t started working on it by now, they won’t be ready in time because your body can’t just switch into those vibrations.

Also- if you don’t want to believe in vibrations, look up what makes up each frequency. It’s basically being a good person, living for humanity, empathy, acceptance, trust, being grateful, grounded, authentic, and trusting that God and the universe are in control and letting go of anxiety. If you think what I’m saying is sorcery- think about it biblically. Revelation says that the Christians won’t be here to watch the 7 years of hell that Earth has to go through. As long as you don’t take ‘the mark of the beast’, you can still enter Heaven (or new Earth). 5d Earth is a state of consciousness, where we understand that ALL of our brains are on a network, everything is connected. Again- Avatar…. ideas come from somewhere.

I don’t know what’s true.. but I know that what I’ve been told my entire life wasn’t it. I know that I have always looked at the moon and stars and thought that I wanted to go home, but I just thought it was because I didn’t like my childhood. I have always wondered why I soften to the world each time I get hurt instead of harden… and I REALLY wonder why I had the trip I had.

Now, I question everything, and trust nothing… and now have 4 crystals instead of 1.