tarynitup

I’m doing so well at work, but… I’m moving and I’m so happy about it, but… I’m happy, I think, but…. I’m still holding my breath… & I’m truly worried I will continue to hold it until I die. Continue reading

I’ve beaten my head senseless for the last few months. Correction. Last 2 years. Now, with every good memory, a painful one comes with it. I really needed them about my dad, but the absolute silence I got reminded me that they were only there when they got to sleep with me with no effort.… Continue reading

Is it because I couldn’t afford for you to live with me without working? Did I get too excited about being close to you? Why do you keep leaving me for these women you haven’t even met yet Why do you keep doing it without saying goodbye Why do you get mad when I find… Continue reading

Some songs still rip me apart… woke up in love being one of them. The song that played when someone asked me to finally be their girlfriend… after telling me for 4 months they weren’t ready to be exclusive. I’m sorry, but saying “I’m not ready to make you my girlfriend” is saying “I’m not… Continue reading

I’ve listened to way too much of Taylor Swift recently- but the reason swifties listen to her so much is she’s so fucking relatable. She sings about a multi year situationship that she ran back to after her long term relationship ended. I left the situationship I was in for a relationship I poured all… Continue reading