tarynitup

A blog about my real ass life and all of the adventures in it.


  • This pain

    This pain is a new pain. (Great, another one) I’ve never felt like my life was seen as a joke like this. I never thought someone that I loved would get joy out of hurting me on purpose just to be mean. Mother’s Day fucking hurt. I needed them and they yelled at me for… Continue reading

  • Reality

    When you get out of something, you start to see it for what it truly was. Doing a FaceTime call with my friend in Denver, she said “we’re in healthcare, we will always see the good in people first” and it clicked, she was right. By nature, I look for the good and I try… Continue reading

  • A passing thought

    For a person who hated being alone… I’ve learned to quite like it. I’ve attempted to date. Only one person making it longer than a month. Even my bloodwork showed extremely low vitamin D. (I’m actually serious, my vitamin d level was at 15 and I have to take a weekly supplement but it made… Continue reading

  • Worse is subjective

    I’ll never forget that night. I’ll never figure out how someone could know me so well about some things but be so completely wrong about other things that are just as important…usually based off of an assumption or a previous person. I ignored so many signs along the way, and that’s where the accountability is… Continue reading

  • As you climb, more stay behind

    I was already nervous about going into an office full of women. Adding becoming roommates with my boss didn’t help. Add that my other 2 counter parts are way young and once they became besties, became bullies but crying out that theyre being personally attacked when asked for accountability- and one got waitlisted for PA… Continue reading