tarynitup

A blog about my real ass life and all of the adventures in it.


  • …are you still there?

    Limbo mode is the most uncomfortable place. People begging me to see it. This morning, I woke up with a text from my friend saying this- You didn’t lose the love of your life—you lost a parasite that was draining the life out of you. Narcissists aren’t soulmates; they are predators in disguise, and understanding… Continue reading

  • your last post

    For months, I have beaten myself senseless emotionally and I have run my body physically into the ground to try and heal/let you go/find myself/get out of bed and you have thrown comments at me about flavors of the week. How stupid you’d feel if you knew that I lost days in the summer staying… Continue reading

  • your last one

    For months, I have beaten myself senseless emotionally and I have run my body physically into the ground to try and heal/let you go/find myself/get out of bed and you have thrown comments at me about flavors of the week. How stupid you’d feel if you knew that I lost days in the summer staying… Continue reading

  • the final one to you

    I should be flattered at the amount of strength you think I must have. I’ve asked you before if you thought I was bulletproof. Now, I just want to ask how stupid you think I must be. Because of how I choose to look at it, I’ll always choose to see the best in you…… Continue reading

  • this isn’t rent free

    What do I have to do to get you out of my head? Why are you still here, taking up space in every thing I do… I walk around feeling like half of a person, and fully ready to accept feeling like that for the rest of my life. Why. How is my heart still… Continue reading