tarynitup

A blog about my real ass life and all of the adventures in it.

  • your last one

    For months, I have beaten myself senseless emotionally and I have run my body physically into the ground to try and heal/let you go/find myself/get out of bed and you have thrown comments at me about flavors of the week. How stupid you’d feel if you knew that I lost days in the summer staying… Continue reading

  • the final one to you

    I should be flattered at the amount of strength you think I must have. I’ve asked you before if you thought I was bulletproof. Now, I just want to ask how stupid you think I must be. Because of how I choose to look at it, I’ll always choose to see the best in you…… Continue reading

  • this isn’t rent free

    What do I have to do to get you out of my head? Why are you still here, taking up space in every thing I do… I walk around feeling like half of a person, and fully ready to accept feeling like that for the rest of my life. Why. How is my heart still… Continue reading

  • T Goes to Wobble Rocks

    In the midst of the most confusing time of my life, I managed to make it to red rocks. What I will say is that memory is very special to me, as much as I’ve tried to make it not so, it just is what it is. Me and C were in the beginning of…… Continue reading

  • run forest, run

    I’ve always struggled with the term when people ask what I’m most afraid of when it comes to being hurt. Abandonment? Forgotten? Tolerated? It’s driven me crazy for YEARS, until today. Where I’ve just thought I was a huge piece of shit failure, there was a feeling I was scared of to a toxic fault.… Continue reading