tarynitup

All of the words we’ve said to each other have blended together, even for them. They want me to know the good things they meant and not the bad things, but they hang on to the bad things I’ve said or the things I’ve said that I probably worded a little confusing (not intentional) and… Continue reading

I can’t shake it today. All day, I’ve fought back tears. Fought back memories Emotions Pushing away thoughts of the great weekend they had. Pushing away thoughts of wondering if they even ever think of me at all or if the only reason is out of relief I’m out of their life. Nothing about it… Continue reading

Now, there’s just resentment. A feeling I didn’t want to feel. True anger to my core. Not even anger Aj could reason with. You realize how much people know you put them on a pedestal when you lower it over the course of “fuck you, I hate you, bitch, slut…” being a constant term over… Continue reading

I learned that not everyone has good intentions. Friends, boyfriends, strangers… sometimes their words cover the darkness. I wasn’t as good of a person as I thought I was. I didn’t hurt anyone on purpose, but I ran from accountability and I blamed everyone else for my pain. I over correct when I try to… Continue reading

I wanted to not be so resentful and angry. For a few minutes, I had peace. I was hungry. I smiled with the girls. All I wanted was to feel peace when it came to all of this. As a video of me singing was sending, it was gone. They don’t get it. They’ll never… Continue reading