tarynitup

Now, there’s just resentment. A feeling I didn’t want to feel. True anger to my core. Not even anger Aj could reason with. You realize how much people know you put them on a pedestal when you lower it over the course of “fuck you, I hate you, bitch, slut…” being a constant term over… Continue reading

I learned that not everyone has good intentions. Friends, boyfriends, strangers… sometimes their words cover the darkness. I wasn’t as good of a person as I thought I was. I didn’t hurt anyone on purpose, but I ran from accountability and I blamed everyone else for my pain. I over correct when I try to… Continue reading

I wanted to not be so resentful and angry. For a few minutes, I had peace. I was hungry. I smiled with the girls. All I wanted was to feel peace when it came to all of this. As a video of me singing was sending, it was gone. They don’t get it. They’ll never… Continue reading

I can’t take back the mistakes I made. I would if I could… but the lessons I learned needed to be learned or i would have never been able to be the person I am now. I wouldn’t have been able to open to and get to know myself in a way I never had.… Continue reading

Every year… my dislike for the holiday season grows. This year has been no exception. Maybe I want to like the holidays. Maybe I’m just tired of feeling let down. Maybe I feel financially inadequate every year. Maybe I’m tired of not having matching PJs with someone. Maybe maybe maybe. I know that I’ve refused… Continue reading