tarynitup

A blog about my real ass life and all of the adventures in it.

  • dear reader

    is the song on taylor swifts new album that hit me the hardest. I sing all of them all the time, except that one. The last 2 or so years, there was a part in another TS song that I felt pretty hard when I heard it… kind of the same way ‘dear reader’ did.… Continue reading

  • I think you’re cool

    I do what I’m supposed to. Wake up. Shower. Go to work. Eat lunch. Back to work. I barely have time to go to the bathroom, much less be on my phone. My mind is constantly spinning… but there’s still you. I get off work, come home, go to bed. I don’t notice you creeping… Continue reading

  • young love v. puppy love v. real love v. true love

    Growing up, people talk about love like it’s definite different stages. Your first crush is usually looked at as a puppy love. Your middle/high school relationship usually gets grouped under the young love. Think of ‘Love Story’ by Taylor Swift. Your young love starts the fire in your heart, in no way warm enough to… Continue reading

  • taught by 4 walls

    If you had told me 2 years ago that I’d be moving out of this apartment and feeling this way, I would have thought you were crazy. If someone came up to me and said “you’re going to have the hardest times of your life in this apartment, mainly this room, and you’re going to… Continue reading

  • careful, your trauma is showing

    Self-awareness is weird. It’s hard. It’s hard to know that you’re being toxic or that you notice signs of others being toxic, but you never are fully sure how to fix it. Therapy is overwhelming, which is why I stopped… I couldn’t handle being aware of my past issues showing up in my current situations… Continue reading