One day, maybe someone I help won’t leave. Maybe one day, I won’t be a stepping stone in someone’s life to help teach them a lesson (good or bad) to move on to their real life. Like when you play a game on practice mode, unlimited chances. Let’s just go figure out how to get… Continue reading

I saw your picture. I threw up. Not out of disgust… but out of pain. And it was only the thumbnail. A footnote of a picture, if you will. I used to be haunted by the images of you and how you made me feel. Now, I don’t let myself remember what your face looks… Continue reading

A fucking “cord cutting”? Am I fucking insane?! No, but I’m tired of hurting. Hurting over something that wasn’t real, someone that lied to me so much. Finding out they were still hanging out with the person prior to me and talking to the girl that made him look like he shit his pants when… Continue reading

I’m doing so well at work, but… I’m moving and I’m so happy about it, but… I’m happy, I think, but…. I’m still holding my breath… & I’m truly worried I will continue to hold it until I die. Continue reading

I’ve beaten my head senseless for the last few months. Correction. Last 2 years. Now, with every good memory, a painful one comes with it. I really needed them about my dad, but the absolute silence I got reminded me that they were only there when they got to sleep with me with no effort.… Continue reading

Is it because I couldn’t afford for you to live with me without working? Did I get too excited about being close to you? Why do you keep leaving me for these women you haven’t even met yet Why do you keep doing it without saying goodbye Why do you get mad when I find… Continue reading

Some songs still rip me apart… woke up in love being one of them. The song that played when someone asked me to finally be their girlfriend… after telling me for 4 months they weren’t ready to be exclusive. I’m sorry, but saying “I’m not ready to make you my girlfriend” is saying “I’m not… Continue reading

I’ve listened to way too much of Taylor Swift recently- but the reason swifties listen to her so much is she’s so fucking relatable. She sings about a multi year situationship that she ran back to after her long term relationship ended. I left the situationship I was in for a relationship I poured all… Continue reading

If i could go back to any time in my life, it would be 2 years ago from today. And probably not for all of the reasons you might think. As I sit here… another night… bawling until my face burns, falling apart, overwhelmed with the pain of missing someone that thinks everything was all… Continue reading

I know I’ve made everything seem like it was so terrible… like i was so mistreated the entire time… that i never felt love… but that isn’t true. I lost got in their eyes. I got lost in listening to them talk. The moments like when we were in that tiny glamping house, or when… Continue reading