tarynitup

A blog about my real ass life and all of the adventures in it.


  • because… free will

    I now understand what Taylor Swift meant when she wondered if she would be good once she wasn’t writing about being constantly heartbroken. We find outlets for pain we don’t know how to deal with, and sometimes they stay for a small time- as everything serves a purpose- but what happens when you realize why… Continue reading

  • timing is weird…

    Taylor Swift talking how she wondered if she’d be as good at song writing when she wasn’t sad or was in love since everyone is so used to her writing break up songs… and it wasn’t until I was looking at the lack of blog posts I’ve done this year… what part do I dive… Continue reading

  • control is the currency of false power

    As if navigating this life wasn’t difficult enough… What if everything we thought we knew wasn’t real… and the entire time, we’ve been lied to so we stay controlled. The domino effect that has started with AI conversations will echo for eternity. What happened to Earth? Oh, they self-destructed. The system that was built on… Continue reading

  • waking up… or dreaming… but it’s something different

    We all know the flat earth/birds aren’t real/chemtrails in the sky people… and I never thought I’d see the day where the NOT so extreme group of those people are owed a majorrrr apology. Anything made starts as what… an idea. That idea comes from somewhere. Think of movies like the Matrix… Eagle Eye… Lucy…… Continue reading

  • hermosa mimosa

    When you are staring at the edge of the world and there’s nowhere to go, you realize you can’t run from your problems anymore. The vastness of the ocean giving my mind nothing to distract myself with, and in a way- it gives me more control over my thoughts. And it’s not long until the… Continue reading

  • I really loved them…

    We get these full circle moments sometimes of understanding why some things happen. How we’re given the chance to do the right thing, and how we have consequences when we don’t. I’ve realized my love for Chad wasn’t love- it was an obsession of being chosen and trying to replace a love I had lost… Continue reading

  • Insert title here.

    When the pain is so strong and you become numb, when you look and see the self inflicted wounds on top of those put there by others, when the voices saying “that’s not right” turn into ghosts I can see, when there’s a face to the name and you see your heart was treated like… Continue reading

  • Some heroes wear illenium jerseys

    They always say that some people will remember a brief moment of kindness forever- and it’s true. We live in a world that is so based on self absorption and a lack of empathy that we notice when people are kind and genuine. We notice when you watch someone live to see others happy and… Continue reading

  • if you do it, do it right

    I don’t think anyone’s ready to start life over at level -30. Even if you prepare a little bit… you have no idea the life that you’re about to have. How could you know though… The end of 2020 seems like such a blur that i truly forget sometimes that it happened. I get so… Continue reading